JUST BE WHO AM I

        "Ahh~", I took a deep breath. Finally, my internal exams for Sem 1 were ended in a blink of an eye. Although the syllabus is totally different from the high school's examination, but I have to work extremely ( or a word more than extremely should be replaced ) hard, in order to score a better result. The only word-determination, that can help me to be succeed. Those past experiences or lessons have already taught me a great lesson. The word 'slack' should really get rid from my mind or else I will just take my own sweet time doing watever nonsense that will just wasting my precious time. 

        After this, it will be my external exams, the major exam! *Took a deep breath again. "Ahh~" * I'm really worried about it. No more reference books, workbooks to improve my knowledge. Now, I have to do my own research. The independent moments. Just take it easy, as usual I tell myself that I can do it! I believe that if you work hard, your hard work will really be paid off. Maybe I just started my college life, everything just seemed to be new to me. But time shows everything. One step by one step, slowly I will reach the final line or goal. Although, for me, the Chemistry 2 trials paper was really difficult, making my headache and feeling disappointed, but I still have to go through this step to move on to a higher level. 

        Do more and day-dream less. I just did not know what on earth happened to me, keep on thinking those not logical things. Have to get rid of it SERIOUSLY. Luckily, i got my friends always stay beside me, accompany me to go through sadness, happiness and so on. They taught me not to live in people eyes, be yourself and live for yourself. This is just what I couldn't do for those past years, making my life a little bit of suffering. These days my life really changed a lot. Fate, I guess, knowing them. I do feel thankful and grateful for everything right now. I think now I know myself a little better. I'm growing up everyday, learning all good values, learning from mistakes. 

        Be myself. I know who am I now. I know what I want now. I know what I want to avoid now. I know more  about myself now, indeed. I just want to live happily with my dreams, be myself and appreciate everything in my life. That's all. Living in people eyes was indeed a very toughful moments. Letting all away. Do what I want. Stay happy. Smile on every mistakes and learn from it. Stay strong. Don't easily get beaten up by an obstacles. There's so many alternative ways to continue your journey, if this way block just don't be afraid to turn to the other side, just go. NO to ANXIETY! FEAR! Just do it. Say YES I CAN! :)