Adrenaline shoots up once I was awakened from a dream right before my alarm rang. The anxiety is as if like the first day of school of a primary school children, maybe I'm just not ready for school, I'm still staying sweet in my holiday mood.
Early in the morning, looked up for an oral surgeon to discuss about my wisdom tooth. I'm a future dentist but I'm actually afraid of dental treatments, feeling of butterflies in my stomach when I'm still deciding to get it removed or not. Speaking up with our school's orthodontist Dr Loke, to get her opinion on whether to remove my wisdom tooth. And here, I get all the advices I've always wanted to. I opened up to her, about all the fears I have in the future as the dental field is getting more and more competitive and the exposure that we get is getting lesser and lesser especially when we served for that one year compulsory service. She spoke a lot to me, she even told me about her days back then when she didn't even think that she will be an orthodontist. She said when the days in her service in GHKL she got a lot of exposure in oral surgery, she likes it so much. But after all, due to the long hours of working and on call, and she eliminated other specialization, she chose orthodontist and she's finally in her master after 10 years later. I do told her that doing dentistry is also my choice when I eliminated other careers in my list. But she told me, once you're in it just work hard and go for it and be happy. She told me that it's just like a game, when you're a beginner and you actually find difficulties in playing it, but as you play, you learnt how to manage them, then you begin to be very excited and want to try to challenge more. Don't stress up yourself, just be happy for everything. Do what you should do now and do not be eager for reward (cause you will be stressed up), do just because you're happy with it. She also asked me to get good of the fundamental, get all the bread and butter ready before more comes into my life. Study hard now! Treat all the patients like your own family members and you will get the right path. And I wanted to add sth Dr Joan also inspired me a lot, she taught me to treat a patient carefully and sincerely, not just requirements but the overall oral health of the patient. We look in long term, not short term relieved for the patient. Really grateful to have all these doctors that made my life a little bit different, they changed me to be a good dentist in the future. But not fame.
I really want to be a responsible dentist and a dentist being called a family's dentist. I do not go for a high income or a dentist that with all the fame and showing people all their achievements ( I used to think that way is a success, but I'm wrong, I know what I want.) , I just want to be an ordinary but good dentist.
Thankful that I know what I'm achieving for in the future, but I will not be worried of what path I'm choosing in the future, because time will let you know the answer. Don't worry and be happy! Don't remember to work hard too! :)
P/S: this is the 10th year I'm writing a blog. I like to express my feelings through writing. And i do read back what I've wrote and reflect on them or reminiscing moments of the past. Now, I choose to write even more to actually treat this place as my listener and don't forget I always have a dream to publish my own book on my journey since young. So this acts as the purpose. ;)
Till here, I'm a bit too long winded. :p
