-my first online lecture with Dr Haikal-
I've been staying at home for the past 26 days and 17 days more to go due to the movement control order (MCO) to manage the Covid-19 outbreak.
The past 26 days was really slacking and mainly spent time for my family. Really glad that I have this opportunity to stay together with my family and do things together. Also, not forgetting my little nephew which I spent most of my time with him. Although staying at home with so many family members (nine of us) is not really that easy at all, but anyhow we manage to minimize all the unnecessary argues. It's also another lesson to learn in living with so many people in a family and how to be more considerate for each other especially your beloved ones which not many of us get to encounter.
These days I get to identify myself more too and start to understand myself, learning to gain self-love. I begin to be steady and sure on what exactly I'm doing. I used to have separation anxiety as I'm a person who always rely on others especially my family or my other half and I do feel insecure too whenever coming into decision making and etc. I begin to knew how fragile I am and I really want to get rid of them so badly. Also, I begin to know more about relationship, I want a person who is willing to make an effort for me and together we build trust for each other. This MCO really helps me a lot as I will read more and watch more on life related stories.
Another 17 more days to go, I told myself not to waste anymore time on dramas and start to work on academics. That day I received a nerve-wracking call from a professor, my palms and underarms are totally wet throughout the call but this call really changes my mind towards him as this is the first time I feel his encouragement and a feeling for me to be more hardworking. "You're one of the students who I will give much expectations to so be hardworking." This sentence really pushes me up and start to gain conscious that I shouldn't be wasting more time as I'm going to graduate soon. That night, it was my first time signing up on a free online lecture and I was really attentive and I do learnt a lot. I promise myself to start working and get my face away from the phone screen and start learning before it's too late!
Looking forward for a better self! Let's go!
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