New Year

         Hey its new year. Woohoo~~ uhmm... Here comes 2015. New year, new resolution and new hope. So, what's my new resolution? Firstly, let me secretly tell you something I wanna have abs. For me it sounds ridiculous haha! Cause how can a person lazy like me, wishing to have abs. Anyway, it's gonna be under my 2015 wish list. In this year, I just hope that I will be more determined and I'm turning  twenty soon. Twenty! It's time to be like a lady, wearing heels, behaving like a women. Haha. Time flies. I was just a teenage that couldn't stand and sit still, jumping all around like a monkey. And now, I'm twenty. Twenty! 

        Okay, I will just stop mentioning my age. Anyway my birthday isn't close yet, so I will just continue be nineteen for the entire 8 months. Hahaha! 2015 hmm, hoping that I could make decision wisely and be more determined. 

                                        

    

    Jiayou! ;)

久违的空间

听着部落上的歌曲旋律，让自己的思绪更加清晰，直到满脑子都是写作点子，手指就会在那黑白色的键盘上挥动。

“嗒！嗒！嗒！” 当发现自己失去表达能力，食指不由自主地往"Backspace"键上按，怨自己的不努力，让语文程度变得这么差劲。这也是为什么这部落将近三个月都毫无动静了吧。

但，今夜的自己，好像重拾了希望，就如同往常，听着那熟悉的乐曲，凭着灵感写下这一切。

让几句的文字来告诉你这些天来的点点滴滴吧！

其实，这几天就如同往常的日常生活，只是观点有了些变化，那几天，我像是掉入无底深“怨” , 不断埋怨自己所做的一切，怨自己的不长进把事情变得复杂，也变得不耐烦。当自己真的没办法思考时，突然想起，以前的自己的怎么变换自己的情绪，就播了“无量易经”，让思绪冷静下来，冷静思考的当儿，善的意识被启动了，一切恶念都统统消失，让善的力量化解恶念。其后，自己就像被灌溉般，成长了一些，让自己的思绪更成熟些。

有些时候，自己必须了解，成功不是靠一天的努力换来的，而是靠每天的耕耘换来的收获。

自己要十分清晰自己的理想，朝着理想前进，也同时带着自己的原则，别把懒惰当成借口。

晚安。

就此搁笔 YY。^^

Diary of A Week

It's Sunday today and sadly announce that it's the last day of  my semester break. Anyway, this holiday is short yet it's a meaningful week. I spent my day wisely and got to spend my time with all the person I really treasured. Now, are you ready? Let's flash back to the week.

Monday

Meeting up with the wonderful bunch of people that I know when I first step into the college. We have came along with lots of unforgettable moments. Remembering those days, we played crazily among each other and being overly childish. 

Meeting up at the old place - dreams bakery.

Sang out of our throat.

#ootd

*the sandals are not belong to me. :(

Tuesday

Early morning, about 9, meeting up with my best and closest friend. About 7 years of friendship, it's really long and we keep no secret when we face each other. Although we are separated after leaving high-school but the bond between us never break. We still contact each other and still act crazily among each other.

A dress she gave me that day.

It's the one and only h&m i own now.

Really thankful and happy for that.

Wednesday

为了筹备即将来临的迎新茶会，还有水忏妙手的集训，又来到了一个让我充满回忆、清静的地方—精思堂。今天，又再次让我见证大家的用心付出。

大家都分工把结缘品上的蝴蝶制作好。

Thursday

最后一次在迎新茶会之前的会议，又再一次让我回到KBU。

简单的，度过一整天。

Friday

2014年的第二次迎新茶会，大致上都很顺利。感恩大家的用心付出，让节目温馨的度过。

我们都是一家人~

成就了这次迎新茶会的伙伴们。

Lovely and unforgettable moments.

That night. 

Had great chat with this amazing girl till 3am.

Our relationship is indeed beyond friendship.

I'm really grateful to have her in my life and letting me to speak up everything.

Being as a 慈青 makes the bond between us to be stronger and it will never break.

Saturday

Having a great day with 爸爸妈妈 and 学长姐，knowing that how great that being a 慈青had made a huge difference between us. I'm really happy and feeling grateful to be in this big family.

Had a delicious dinner in this awesome vegie restaurant.

时间永远都不会停下，只愿我们都能善用时间，成为自己想成为的一个人。

假期的最后一天，我要收拾好心情，面对课业上的挑战了。

加油吧！

p/s : I apologize for using English and Chinese in a post. Cause for some part, I just feel good to let it be in mandarin. Also, for any grammar mistakes. I knew that my language is getting worst but anyway, thanks for reading and I promise to improve it for the next post. See you soon!

  

                                每個人都在等一個人，等一個能看見你與眾不同的人。

                                                                                            ——《等一个人的咖啡》

By,

Yinying. ♥

     

[Song Review] Try - Colbie Caillat

       

     

          Hey there, it has been almost a month I have not posted anything. I have been busying with assignments and stuff, also due with laziness because I somehow know that this blog is created to entertain myself. But no worries, i'm okay with it and here comes something new. Firstly, I would like to start with my song review.
          Nowadays, there's this song that you can listen it frequently through the radio and no doubt that this song's music video has a quite high number of views. I know I'm late to post this, because this song has been released since a month ago. Obviously, its Try sang by Colbie Caillat.
Here's the lyrics of that song:

Put your make up on
Get your nails done
Curl your hair
Run the extra mile
Keep it slim
So they like you, do they like you?

Get your sexy on
Don't be shy, girl
Take it off
This is what you want, to belong
So they like you, do you like you?

You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to give it all away
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing

You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try
Yooou don't have to try

Ohh

Get your shopping on, at the mall, max your credit cards
You don't have to choose, buy it all
Do they like you? Do they like you?

Wait a second,
Why should you care, what they think of you
When you're all alone, by yourself
Do you like you? Do you like you?

You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to give it all away
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing

You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to bend until you break
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing

You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try

You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try
Yooou don't have to try

Noooo
Oooh

You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to give it all away
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing

You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try
You don't have to try

Take your make up off
Let your hair down
Take a breath
Look into the mirror, at yourself
Don't you like you?
Cause I like you

        This song is really inspiring. It encourages women to remove their make ups and be ourself. We used to put on make ups to look good on the outside and slowly, we forget the one inside. Its us.        
         The make ups on the outside fake the way how we are. As time moves on, we tend to change our features to somebody else and abandon ourselves. We used to change our character to someone else which gain a lot of likes and attentions from others. Wouldn't it be tired? 
         Like ourself. The uniqueness in everybody is indescribable. Admire ourself as we can only love ourself before loving others. * If someone really adore you, he/she loves everything about you and able to accept your weakness.

This song really gets my attention so much that I have to listen to it everyday and repeatedly listening to it. As what I've mentioned, I'm always insist to be myself no matter what, I really don't like to purposely fake my attitude just to get along with someone. I admit that I tried that before, and I know that it's very tired, being someone that's not you. People come and people go. You can't make everybody likes you. As long as you be yourself and do something that is right, and who cares. I have given this life to achieve all the wonderful dreams and make myself beautiful. *opps, a little bit out of topic, but still rmb to be yourself!

p/s : I'm really sorry with my language. I will really spend more time to improve it seriously. Give me some time and I will astonish you. ;) *wink 

I always believe that words can express my feelings better. I'm used to write in Mandarin as I came from a Chinese-educated family and Chinese is also my mother language. But, we need to have some breakthrough. #MacamYes Previously, I do write in English but all in a mess and neglecting those grammatical errors and my vocabulary is really limited. So, lets see how much I improved after a year, maybe. 

Till here,

Good Night~

加油

害怕？恐惧？我不知道。只是觉得坐立难安，心中的忐忑难以形容。
虽然一直告诉自己没事的，但还是感觉不舒服。
歇斯底里的后悔，后悔当时那慌张失措的自己，后悔那自以为是的自己，后悔那以前的我。
怎么办呢？没有一丝的安全感，好像又要回到那黑黑的洞里去，我不知道。
只能告诉自己，天大地大，不需感到害怕，让时间证明一切。
哪怕是自己一个人，也要坚强面对。
未来的道路是自己创造出来的，无须自责、后悔，因为那时我想要走的路。
原谅我，再一次的茫然。
我会收拾自己的心情再向前走。
没有一条道路是笔直的，只要努力与坚持，必定能走到最后。
默默的生活着，找到自己的一片天。


※ 　跌倒了， 才懂得平順最重要 。
※ 　病倒了， 才懂得身體最重要 。
※ 　鬱悶了， 才懂得快樂最重要 。
※　 挫折了， 才懂得信心最重要 。
※　 遲暮了， 才懂得時間最重要 。
※　 錯過了， 才懂得珍惜最重要 。

是啊！有苦有樂的人生是充實的。有成有敗的人生是合理的。有得有失的人生是公平的。人生坎坷不平才有價值。

※ 《 有贏就有輸，有成就有敗，有得就有失 》
要成就必須去承擔，要光明必須接受黑暗，要志業必須去付出；世間任何一件非凡之事，必有超常險境和苦難，旋渦中淡定從容者必至遠。

※ 《 感覺累的時候，也許你正處於人生的上坡路。堅持走下去，你就會發現到達了人生的另一個高度！

静思语来自FB“静思语”页。

一个月

        滴滴答答，滴滴答答，就这样过了一个月，很不可思议。不可思议在于，这些时间我都花到哪儿了？我还是招了吧，这一个月，我除了发发呆、看看小说、翘翘二郎腿、看看电视、逛逛街之外，什么都没做了。十足的放空，十足的享受这种懒散，有点颓废的感觉。虽然偶尔会想起成绩放榜的样子，但考试都已经作答了，无法再改变事实，得接受现实了。

就此搁笔。

愿，天下太平。

What is meant to be, it will be.

         Finally, the #30days plan has ended. Although everything turned out as not the way I wanted to be, but everything has past. There's no point to regret. I should have known it earlier. Actually, I just don't understand, why sometimes I get distracted so easily especially when I'm studying. I really feel annoyed and crazy about it, but I just can't do anything and just let it be. Some of you may tell me lots of way to look for motivation, I guessed most of the ways I have already tried, but no use means no use. 

         Erm. I really don't feel like continuing to type. Realizing how my English getting worst. Oh MANN. What have you did to me, A-Levels? Hehe.

June. Ended like this?

Who knows?

每一个在你生命里出现的人，都有原因，都有使命。喜欢你的人给了你温暖和勇气；你喜欢的人让你学会了爱和自持；你不喜欢的人教会了你宽容和尊重；不喜欢你的人让你知道了自省和成长。没有人是无缘无故出现在你生命里的，每一个人的出现都是缘份，都有原因，都值得感恩。

#30days

       

不喊痛，不一定没感觉。不要求，不一定没期待。不落泪，不一定没伤痕。不说话，不一定没心声。若无其事，原来是最好的报复。 何必向不值得的人证明什么，生活得更好，是为了自己。打磨自己的过程很疼，但最终能塑造一个更好的自己。

        It's been a while that I have not updated my blog. "Busy studying I guessed, hehe," with a sense of guilt perhaps. Most of the time slacking again, but this time I've already tried my best, no choice, this month is really an emotional one. Feeling sad all the time, no matter what, feeling stress that I can't finish my studies. Anyway, it's past. Look forward. And my big problem is self-confidence, must build it seriously, or else I really can't success in doing anything.

        Well, let me tell you my plan now before I hibernate with my books. I will have a #30days towards success plan. Let me use this 30 days wisely in achieving my dreams. Let me use this 30 days to change my life. I know next month will be a tough month for me but to be succeed, there's no alternative route rather than study hard. THIS IS REALLY MY LAST CHANCE. My whole life will depend on how hardworking am I in this month.Gotta get back to the study mode as fast as possible although my internal exams just ended today. Please be motivated all the time, myself. I know you can. Nothing is impossible right? Make another miracles happen again. Jiayou! I need to show you I can. I just wanna stay by your side. I will show you. hehe :) Sry, gotta leave here for a moment again. See you soon. ^^

会有那么一天 你会脱掉你爱的帆布鞋 穿上漂亮的高跟鞋 优雅的走在路上 你会盘起发髻 梳上刘海画着精致的妆容 徘徊在各种社交场合 不再像以前那样梳着马尾 留着齐眉刘海哈哈的傻笑 你会成为父母引以为傲的女儿 会有那么一天 你也可以很坚强 坚强到可以为你爱的人撑起一片天空。

淡然

疯狂了许久，终会有想要清静的的时候。
这时候的我，想要安然的自在。
身旁总是希望能有这么一个人默默陪伴着。
他，不需要给予任何承诺、慰问，
只需在旁默默地守候着。
不是爱情。
虽然希望是你，鹏友，
但每个人都有自己的生活，别打扰了。
只希望我能尽一切所能，去到有你的地方。
我知道有时候是我太天真了。
但，我还是会期待。
默默的，
生活着。

安

                           

沉淀，冷静。下一步路，虽然会走得很辛苦，但一切都是值得的。

一时的辛苦，换来笑容、光荣和期待。

没有完成不了的任务。

机会是留给有准备的人。

记着，不言，不语，不忘记，的初衷。

望向未来的希望，加油吧！

"New Year"

       Nothing much just some quotes for me after this Chinese New Year. I've ruined my 2nd sem's exams in the beginning of 2014 and did not get ready for year 2014, that's why, I've treated this Chinese New Year as my beginning of the year and start all over again. Additionally, it's the last sem of my a level. *HOLDING BREATH. Everything will result from this last sem, appreciate this LAST chance. YES, I CAN. HAHA! Just hoping that the motivation and passion for my dreams will not be faded off again. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE. 

Always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie?

-Marilyn Monroe

You can't fly unless you let yourself fall.

難過了悲傷一下沒關係，想哭了哭一下沒關係，心疼了疼一下沒關係，一個人孤單一下也沒關係。給時間一點時間，一切都會過去。

世界再大，大不過包容的心；路途再遠，遠不過燃燒的夢。生命中不要有太多的尋找，也別在利益的光圈里長久地搏殺與糾纏，要學會適當的駐足、逗留、休憩。爭奪的東西越多，有時會覺得越累，不如給自己預留點時光，弛緩神經，愉悅身心，讓曠日持久的奔波能夠輕鬆些。就如水，不爭可容萬物，無怨滌洗塵埃。

GAN EN ✈

        

不是眼泪就可以挽回失去，所以不要轻易流下眼泪。不是伤心就一定要哭泣，所以不要那么吝啬你的笑容 。不是你认为可以给予就给予，所以不要那么轻易许下承诺。不是你做的不够好，所以不要悲悯的以为自己一事无成。记住，不是只有你一个人在努力，所以不要轻易的就放弃。

       

        I've been deciding whether to use English or Mandarin to write this, but lastly i've chosen English. Although I really know that after a year, my English level dropped tremendously, but I have to write in English to find the 'feeling' back again. Haha! Anyway there's one more paper, one week more for me to prepare for that. This time, I must not waste time again. It's really suffering, studying last minute. The feeling was really horrible, filled with regret, struggling all the time. After this, I will not study last minute again. NEVER. Those night, before I closed my eyes and went into my dreamland, I was really stressed out and feel like killing myself, it was not because I studied too much, it was because I didn't study. Then, you will ask me, why don't you study earlier? I will give you lots of excuses again. One word, LAZY. This lesson really taught me a lot. At least, I will not study last minute. Haiz. Tired. After 'intense' studying for 2 weeks non-stop. Before going into degree, I need to build up a new character, on study side. I must grab this chance to get into a better university. I know I can. Nothing is impossible. Wish me all the best for the last sem of A level. ;)

        "Ding-dong-chiang~" Chinese New Year is coming soon! Although I'm really not in the good mood of celebrating this event, but we only celebrate it once in a year, just treat it extraordinary and welcome the new year happily. First time in my life too, my exam ends before Chinese New Year, that's why my mood is affected. Hehe. This year's Chinese New Year is really totally different from past few years. Maybe it is because the economic 'crisis' and everybody's busying talking about Kangkung. LOL. 

        After new year and it reminds me of my age, NOOO, I'm no longer 18. I love to be 18, HAHA. Because I can really feel "ME", growing up day by day. More Gan En. :) 

        Aeroplane.  ✈  These days, I'm falling in love with aeroplane. Since August, the first time I stepped into KLIA, first time sitting on an aeroplane and first time travelling overseas. It was really fun. And, I started to love the aeroplane, especially the sound when the aeroplane fly and landed. I enjoy listening the sound. Feeling peaceful don't know why. HAHA. I also like travelling overseas, looking at different diversity of people. HEHE. Till here. GAN EN. ^^

如果你不快乐，那就出去走走，世界这么大。风景很美、机会很多、人生很短，不要蜷缩在一处阴影中。

Fell in love with birkenstock.

(wore my friend's birkenstock just to take a photo.)

I hope that I can have the same colour with my Mr. Left next time!

Funny lah me!

LOL.