勇敢。

        Bello~ 3 more days left! Its 2014! Woohoo! Time flies seriously. Actually compared to past few years, I'm really excited to welcome the new year. But for this year, I'm having exam in the beginning of the year! First time in my life, having exam in the beginning of the YEAR! That's bad, right? Hehe! In fact, I'm actually counting down for my exam but not for the new year. When everybody goes "3, 2, 1! Its new year", then, i'll be like "3, 2, 1! OH NO! My exam is nearer!" Sad case. HAHA. Whatever~
Now, I need to switch the language to chinese already to conclude the year.

2013年，让我用中文来诠释它吧！（长话短说）
        这一年，算是我活了18年以来最精彩的一年吧！哈哈！言重了些！虽然在这一年里，也曾有些挫折，但过得还挺充实。我，有了像家人般疼惜我的朋友们，有了第二个“ 家庭树 ”，也体会了、参加了许许多多不一样的活动，例如：成为了慈青，把我以前沉闷的生活“活化”了，因为在那之前，还以为上了大学以后，就得乖乖地当个书虫。
        在这一年里，虽然心中还有一些恐惧，但我答应了自己，一定要自己去克服恐惧，唯有自己能将它清除。这是只有我自己知道的害怕，也无法解释。我并不需要任何人的协助，我只是希望有个人能摸摸我的头，告诉我，没事的。那就好了。也许，我不应该说成恐惧，而是没有安全感吧！送2014年的我俩字，勇敢。

        写了写，我发觉了，我不止英文退步了，中文也退步了耶！咳，真没用！2014年的我，必须是好学、机灵的小女生。呵呵！一步一脚印，把我的生活变得更美好。

有些路很远，走下去会很累。可是，不走会很后悔。

The only disability in life is a bad attitude.

My Meaning For Life

        It's the second week of December! About 2 more weeks left to go for 2014. Last week, I've spent my days wisely with all sort of events. Let me start of with the first event that happened on 5th of Dec. It was KBU IDOL 2013! It was a great success! My friends and I had spent our precious time right after our internal exams to prepare for the finals. I'm really thankful to all my friends that have made my days to be the memorable one. This is the first event which we organize it together and also, this big event had made a history for KBU. At least, before we stepped out of the college, we have something to boost with. HAHA. Through this event, I've also get to know some awesome people, such as a famous youtuber, Joseph Germani, Tyler Lim from Fly fm, Zen, a Malaysia new artist and also Grace Wong! What a great experience! Time flies. This event we planned it like several months ago and finally, it ended. I do really hope that we have another chance to organise such event again. The most important thing its not the succeed, its the moment that my friends and I treasured together as a family. 6 more months left, until we separate to the universities. I can't imagine my life without them. Anyway, I will appreciate the days we spend time together. Hehe.

        Next, TZU CHING. Last Saturday, I've joined a Tzu Ji activity as a volunteer by bringing those Myanmar victims to the Science Club. It's really fun. Looking at the smiles on their faces, I'm truly blessed and happy. I will study hard in my external exams, so that my parents will let me join Gan Bu for Tzu Ching. Jiayou! I believe I can! As I promised my friend to study, I really have to study hard, so that, my family and friends will not be disappointed! :) Jiayou! :)

KBU IDOL 2013!

A so-called " Family Photo"!

Tzu Ching! 

 A full and interesting life indeed.

"人生就是不停的战斗。"

Beyond NOV

“ We should look at the future, not the past. 我们要看的是未来，而不是过去。”

Hey, there. It's the last day of November. How are you doing nowadays? I just finished my internal exams yesterday. YAYY! Haha. But external exams will be on JAN 2014. Wish me all the best. Cause this will be the last chance for me to do better. I don't wanna see myself retaking any subjects. I just hope that I will get a better result to enter a better university. Also, I've promised someone that I will study harder. And, I wanna my parents to be proud of me. That's the current aim in my life. Anyway, I will enjoy my happy and enjoyable life before I start studying. HEHE.
These days, I don't really feel like writing anything. I guessed it's because I'm lazy or there's nothing special happened that I really wanna write it down here.

喜欢你的人要你的现在，爱你的人要你的未来。真正的爱情，不是一见钟情，而是日久生情；真正的缘份，不是上天的安排，而是你的主动；真正的关心，不是要求他改变，而是他的改变你是第一个发现的；真正的矛盾，不是他不理解你，而是你不会宽容他。爱上一人容易，等平淡后，还坚守那份诺言，就不容易了。

風再大，也會過；雨再大，也會停；喜再狂，也會散；悲再痛，也會淡。日子雖不如意，終究還是要笑著過。

That's all. :)

RaNdom

     

“要相信，梅雨季节再长，也浇不灭阳光的炽热；艰难困苦再多，也遏不住我们飞腾的梦想。人生之路是由成功与挫败、得志与失意、辉煌与黯淡、平坦与曲折拼凑而成的，连接着我们的泪与笑，承载着我们的悲与欢。无论置身成功，抑或处于逆境，还是面对败北，都只是一个过程，路依旧在向前方延伸。”

          Another day wasted. What am I doing nowadays? LAZY. SLACK. PROCRASTINATE. All these words are becoming more familiar for me. Where's all my inspiration? Where's the determination? There should not be a word of regret after procrastinating all your works because you choose this way. *Scolding myself. I always tell myself that a better result will deserve a better university. If there's no hard work, don't ever think of something great will come for you. STUDY. LETS STUDY. Mehhhh... Get up you lazy bump. Make them feel proud of you. Thinking of the person that want to see you fail, show them that you can do it. Stop slacking ya. Be DETERMINED. And most importantly, get away from the lappy and phone. 

These days, I'm struggling in Maths. Arghhh... Can't you treat me nicer? You make me stuck with you for several hours. And these hours, I just managed to finish a few questions. Baddd. 

Out of the topic, er herm. *clear my throat. Desperate for what? (Sounded like a very m'sia slang. LOLL.) There's nothing to be desperate for. Stop having imagination. Those possibilities that you think of will not gonna happen. WAKE UP! + Stop using the net sooo frequent. I don't really know what am I typing now. Hehe. Just ignore.

Quote of the day!

p/s : I'm sounding like there's two character, but actually i'm talking to myself. Just ignore.This would be the bad passage i've written. Haih. Getting insane soon. HEHE. Jiayou ba! :)

久违的华文，你好？别来无恙。HEHE. 虽然我很少再用华文来书写，但我还是为中五报考华文的我感到骄傲。我并没有放弃我的母语哦！：）

梦想，它像是一个目标，是一个让自己活下去的原动力，是一个让自己开心的原因，是一个会帶你走过喜怒哀乐的旅程，是一个为自己画的蓝图！只要能夠让心中怀抱着梦想的烛光，人生將因为有梦而更显美丽！勇敢做一个有梦的人，以坚決的信心，施以努力的奋斗，就有惊人的成就。

生活总是这样，不能叫人处处都满意，但我们还要热情地活下去，人活一生，值得爱的东西还很多。

NITES! ^^

oNE tEN

     

 

" We are more like a family. "

                                                                               

      Last day of October.Time flies. Two more months to go until we welcome 2014. While I have 8 more months to graduate from A-Levels. It has been about 10 months since the day I stepped into this college. Although it's just 10 months, but I can't deny that I'm closer with my college's friends rather than my friends in high school. We're more like a family. This college has given me much memories. Over here, I've learnt a lot.  Learning to be more optimistic is just one of them which have changed my character. Met lots of awesome people here too. My tales couldn't be written without them. Each of them meant a lot to me. TEEHEE.

      Nonetheless, 3 more weeks to go for first phase of A2 trials begin. I've wasted a few days refurnishing my blog. Must study hard already. I really don't wanna see my family and friends to be disappointed on me. In order to make them feel proud of me, I must fulfil their expectations on me. JIAYOU!

      Here's the L.O.V.E topic begins again. HAHA. Nothing much about it. Just as usual. ADMIRING. LOLSS. Sometimes, I tend to lose confidence on myself, keep saying that I'M UGLY, no way. BUT i always believe that there's a hope. Anyway, stick to the usual quote : what is meant to be, it will be. Also, I will make myself to be a better me. :D

  I really wanna travel all around the world with my parents and the beloved one.
 Let me include this into my wish list.

I wanted to wish Happy Halloween but it's already 12. Nvm. Hope that NOV will be a wonderful month.

p/s : My english is still improving. Sorry for any grammatical error. HeHe.

A picture explains thousand of words. I will start to include some pictures frequently.

Here, again.

        From the previous diary, I've mentioned that I will not write anything these days due to my busy schedule, but as my intuition, I knew that these days I will write something here. Cause these days I tend to think a lot. Keep thinking about how's my A2 going to be like,  feeling much anxiety. Again. "The last chance", these words kept hovering my mind and I felt frustrated. But I'm relieved after crying with my pillow. Hehe. Actually, crying ain't something bad, it helps us to relief our stress and making us to feel better.
        Sometimes, I don't like my behaviour. I will turn crazy to relief my stress. I don't like this way. Some others which don't really know me will thought that i'm an insane cause I will be laughing and talking about something funny. While my friends that are closed with me, they will think my behaviour is unique, and it 'symbolizes' me. Lol. But I will try to restrain myself, so that my friends wouldn't think that i'm mad. Hehe.
        Anyway, be happy.  A smile is a woman's greatest make up. Smile always. :) Nobody would wanna be with a person which don't like to smile and quiet all the time. Hehe. Stay strong! :)

Random

        Hey, there. I've just gotten the Timetable for internal exam. Oh no. Can you feel the stress?! My mouth opens widely, eyes as well too. And my shoulders feel tight. Stress again! Nooo! Calm down. Calm down. Lets take a deep breath. Hmmm... Actually, i shouldn't feel so stress out, as long as i've worked hard, there's nothing to be worried of. Steady lahh. BUT I CAN'T. Whenever there's this mindset that fly off my mind and reminding me that 'this is the last chance', imma like Gosh!!! What am i doing?! Study! And here comes stress. Lolll. For me, it's really hard to be steady. But i will try hard to relax myself and to feel better. Nvm. Just take a deeeeep breath, and strech your hands. Ahhhh.... Hehe! :) Jiayou! :) Nites. Off to bed soon. I'm gonna stop writing blog for now, unless there's sth happened and i really wanna say-it-out-loud. Hehe! :)

Busy busy busy~

       Internal exam is coming soon. Time flies. The previous internal exam like happened not long ago and the 2nd sem's internal exam is around the corner. Have to start to make myself to be busy. The previous exam has told me that not to look down on A levels. Therefore, i need to put more effort in order to get a better result. Jiayou lohh! Determination is the key word remember it! Before I regret, better work hard first.
先苦后甜!
Hope that i can get rid of the 'laziness'!
Busy busy busy~ :)
Agnes: "Oh no! Jiayou o!"

Freeze the time plsss~

        It was my birthday yesterday. Happy belated birthday to myself! These two days, I have lots of fun. Thanks to my friends that have made two surprises for me. One of it, it was the most memorable one. I had my birthday in TGIF yesterday with my friends, TGIF! I guess you know what's happening. Have you ever been standing on the chair in the restaurant and the everyone's looking at you? And you have to sing a song and dance infront of them. And one more thing, all the workers come towards you and sing a happy birthday song to you. Yess! I had experienced all that. It's totally unexpected! Hahahaha! Another surprise was they called a person which I used to chat with appeared in today's birthday celebration. Although we are just normal friends, but it was really shocking. Loll...
        Everything is over now. I have to go back to the normal life again. Aww... No more hang out. Have to concentrate in my studies. I guess these months i'll be busy and mad with my internal, external and IELTS. Can't imagine how my results wil be but as long as I have put  in all my effort, and there's no regret. I have no choice. For achieving my dreams, I have to work hard. Nothing can help me except for working hard. Take a deep breath and continue to walk. Although I have enjoyed these days very well, but I'm feeling a bit down. No matter what I will continue to walk. Stay strong! Out of the comfort zone!!! And for him, I wanna be a better person. :)

Moment of happiness

        A little bit 'high'! Hehe! Just finished shooting for KBU! It's a video clip about a mission to complete. Although i'm just a small and tiny character in that video but i'm already in seventh heaven! It's really awesome, seeing those tools for shooting and looking at the two handsome actors acting. Hehe! ;P One of the actors, his name is Gibson Yee, which i took photo with, he's a humour guy! When he knew that we wanna take photo with him, he's like 'come! come!'. And after taking the photos, he said 'study hard~' in a humour way! Hehe! Making me smile again! Good good! ;) Hehe! ;) Just a little thing and i'm so happy! Lol! :) The other one, his name is Billy Ng, one of the character in Kepong Gangster, I didn't watch Kepong Gangster, so i didn't notice him. Lol. :) A word to describe, cool. :D
        Another thing, I wasn't know that oversea's universities are so nice! It's exactly what i have seen in the Harry Potter. This making me so excited that made me wanna go to Uk to study. Weeee! Haha! That's why study hard! Kekeke! Let's study hard and have a better future! Never lose hope! ;)
        My life is just so amazing with these activities or events going on in my life. Sometimes, taking part in it will really colour your life and make your memory to be wonderful! Kbu, it's just almost 9months here but I have lots of memory in this college. I will really miss this place when i leave here. This place has cherished my life so well with my friends and amazing people here. Ahh! ;)
        Hope is always there for you. :) Be strong! Be positive! ;)

如何?

        有时候, 别怪我语无伦次, 我只是想找话题聊聊, 希望您可以与我说几句话, 但又害怕说错话。有时候, 别怪我多话, 我只是想真心真意的与您谈心、聊天。有时候, 别怪我突然地找您聊天, 我只是想找您诉苦。我觉得, 我好不自在, 为何我不能,爱朋友面前作自己呢? 难道我应该, 静静的什么话也不说? 我不是这样的人, 我比较热情, 见到朋友便会忙着不停讲话。此时, 我将打开心房, 与您聊天。我究竟该如何? 也许, 你们要的是安静的我吧! 也许, 我安静了, 大家才觉得平静些。那我就自量点吧, 我应该往好的一方想, 让我改变我自己吧! :)
        最近, 诉苦的人真少。也许, 找个角落, 让自己疗伤, 才好吧! 不要再打搅别人了。加油吧! :) 我会把我自己变得很好的! :)  少说话, 可能就会少听见别人对自己伤人的话语吧! :) 顺便祝大家国庆日快乐! :) Malaysia Boleh! :)

这一天, 的我

        当我看见了它, 我的心和我的希望粉碎了。这从来都不是我预料的, 为何呢? 我笑了, 笑那愚蠢的自己。我闭上眼, 告诉自己我必须忍着, 不可以哭, 绝对不可以, 不能让他人嘲笑自己丑陋的一面。我反而在大家的面前把我的成绩当作笑话来看待。谁知, 其实, 在这次失败的经历背后, 付出了多少? 就这样一切化为乌有, 半年的时间就这样没了, 我一时接受不了, 真想杀了自己。
        经过理智性的思考, 我必须坚强, 这只是初步的挑战, 后头还更辛苦。别人在两年内完成的事, 我必须在少过一年的时间完成, 我真不敢想像这任务是否能完成。我必须咬紧牙根, 坚持走下去。不管成果如何, 起码我努力过, 不会后悔。加油吧! 对于你的离别, 我无话可说, 只祝你一路顺风。我了解, 有些事不可能发生, 就不可能会发生, 勉强是不会有幸福的。没关系。因为," 離開，原本就是愛情與人生的常態。那些痛苦增加了你生命的厚度，有一天，當你也可以微笑地轉身，你就會知道，你已經不一樣了！愛情終究是一種緣分，經營不來。我們唯一可以經營的，只有自己。 " 把自己成为理想中的自己, 让自己不后悔。:)

爱国

        在异国环绕一周, 突然对自己的国土产生了一种爱国的情操。在异国, 发觉了不一样的风土人情。此地的人们不再是亲切的, 他们自私自立、没礼貌等等。这几天, 我多么希望会有一些好心人的出现, 以改变我对此地的印象。经过了几件事后, 觉得我国的人民是多么的亲切、慷慨解囊、有礼等。在此, 我觉得如果您对自己的国家感到不满, 不妨到异国去走走、瞧瞧, 了解其国的文化后, 变会觉得还是自己的国家比较温暖, 想拥抱这温馨的国土。:) 爱自己, 更爱国。:) 祈求世界平安。:)
       

Free

       Nowadays, i'm really quite free. Staying at home, doing nothing. Hmm... I'm quite an outgoing person, honestly. Haha. So, being too free, it's not a good thing for me. Gonna meet my friends often, to kill my time. Asking me to study? Haha. Actually, isn't a bad thing too. But sitting on the same chair, reading the same books. It really making you insane. Not too say insane, but the feeling is really not good. Now, I just wanna take part in all sorts of activities and be more positive. Cause doing nothing really make you keep overthinking and feeling more and more depressed. Smileee! Haha!

梦想与现实

        小时候, 看童话故事, 故事里的主角都有个伟大的梦想, 故事中叙述主角努力不懈地实现梦想。小时候的我, 因种种事件, 我立志要成为医生。希望造福人群的我, 秉持着它已有五年之久。近来, 听见了许多长辈们对我的劝诫, 我似乎动摇了。长辈们都希望我不要辛苦, 因为医生的值班时间实在不是一般人能够承受的。我也必须了解如果真的是医生, 那我必须牺牲很多空闲时间补眠, 对于我这个爱睡猪。我亲戚, 本身也是位伟大的医生, 也劝我要三思。从众多的劝告下, 我选择放弃梦想, 接受现实。一直以来, 我都是靠一点一点的努力而来的, 我承认我并不是很喜欢在有压力下读书, 我只希望自己能快快乐乐的度过这只有一次的大学时段。身边的人难免会有些失望, 但我知道只要我快乐, 身边的人也会快乐。最重要的是我不让生命留白, 做个有用的人。
        不管以后会是如何, 我相信只要做好当下的自己, 一切该发生的事, 终究会发生, 不期盼。我真的不希望,  我所想的一切会落空。
        我们看见同一片天空, 但每个人的心却朝向不同的地方。我们不能期盼别人对待我们什么, 因为我们没有要求别人的资格。注定的一切, 我们并不能改变。童话故事里的公主只有在那虚幻的故事里萌芽, 现实里没有那么一个她。每个人都有自己的一段故事, 无论是精彩、悲哀、痛苦、快乐的故事, 都得跨过, 那样一步一步的锻炼成熟的思路。我相信总有一天他会出现的, 现在我还是把自己变得更优秀些吧! ^^

Hey, there!

        I just found an app for blogger for android phone. That's great. It means that I can update my life events any time without switching on my lappy. It has been two weeks since my school reopened. But my holiday mood seems like not ending yet. How? Luckily, it's just two weeks and I'm still able to catch up now. I seriously need to study hard now. Jia you lah! Today's hardwork will bring you one step nearer to your dreams. * sry, my eng is becoming worst. Improving... :)

感情

        陌生的两个人，陌生的两句话。不知是从哪儿来的胆子，竟与一个从未相见、从未说话的人产生了好感。这是怎么一回事呢 ？我不晓得。为何就那么随便“施舍”自己的感情呢？我也不晓得。从何而来降落的感觉，我真的真的不晓得。对你的一切一窍不通、对你的不懂得实在太多太多了，那为何？人的感情就是这样吗？难道自己就控制不了吗？我呢，将把它压抑着。也许，这才是正确的吧！要是让你知道了，一定觉得又可笑、又荒谬吧！怎能乱来啊！
        谈起感情，我呢，还未有资格。现在的我，犹如顽皮、活跃的死孩子，有时候又变得落魄、失魂的书呆子。要谈感情，那就等我变得优秀，让我看见自己就觉得很满意，那就是时候了。等我准备好一切后，再说吧！现阶段以学业为中心点。
        如果日子一天一天的过了，感情还未淡，我也变得成熟了，那也许我会先踏出第一步。但，那也会是以后的事。我曾经告诉自己不要后悔做过每一件事，所以我一定要好好读书，并且“慎选”。加油吧！: )

心·棘

        坐着，风，迎面而来。思绪一个一个的连接起来，是惆怅吗？也许只是像个小女孩一样坐在石头上，不停的幻想吧！有时候，难免也喜欢清静。

        考试暂时结束了，享受着无忧无虑的滋味。虽然说是无忧无虑，但对于爱胡思乱想的我来说，而是想东想西的时候。比起在忙着准备考试的我来说，反而没想那么多，只是忙着考试。我啊！我！为何爱乱想呢？做些实际的东西吧！无畏的，舍弃吧！告诉自己我并不需要。其实，并不是什么大件事，只是爱乱想罢了！整天板着那张脸，笑下嘛。。。搞得自己好像很压力似的。“解铃还是系铃人”，有些事不是别人能帮得上的，自己要成熟些。有时候，“沉默是金”，多说什么并不能改变什么，乖乖的就好了。珍惜现在，埋头苦读，总有一天会实现理想的。不管今后还是将来，我必须秉持着实现理想的精神，努力向前进。“世上无难事，只怕有心人”，之前所犯下的错，决不能重犯，要从错误中学习。这几个月下来，不管是华文还是英文，都退步了，趁这个时机补救、补救吧！心中的那根刺，只有自己晓得痛的是哪处，寻找它，在舍弃它。“是你的，就是你的；不是你的，就不属于你的。” ：）

JUST BE WHO AM I

        "Ahh~", I took a deep breath. Finally, my internal exams for Sem 1 were ended in a blink of an eye. Although the syllabus is totally different from the high school's examination, but I have to work extremely ( or a word more than extremely should be replaced ) hard, in order to score a better result. The only word-determination, that can help me to be succeed. Those past experiences or lessons have already taught me a great lesson. The word 'slack' should really get rid from my mind or else I will just take my own sweet time doing watever nonsense that will just wasting my precious time. 

        After this, it will be my external exams, the major exam! *Took a deep breath again. "Ahh~" * I'm really worried about it. No more reference books, workbooks to improve my knowledge. Now, I have to do my own research. The independent moments. Just take it easy, as usual I tell myself that I can do it! I believe that if you work hard, your hard work will really be paid off. Maybe I just started my college life, everything just seemed to be new to me. But time shows everything. One step by one step, slowly I will reach the final line or goal. Although, for me, the Chemistry 2 trials paper was really difficult, making my headache and feeling disappointed, but I still have to go through this step to move on to a higher level. 

        Do more and day-dream less. I just did not know what on earth happened to me, keep on thinking those not logical things. Have to get rid of it SERIOUSLY. Luckily, i got my friends always stay beside me, accompany me to go through sadness, happiness and so on. They taught me not to live in people eyes, be yourself and live for yourself. This is just what I couldn't do for those past years, making my life a little bit of suffering. These days my life really changed a lot. Fate, I guess, knowing them. I do feel thankful and grateful for everything right now. I think now I know myself a little better. I'm growing up everyday, learning all good values, learning from mistakes. 

        Be myself. I know who am I now. I know what I want now. I know what I want to avoid now. I know more  about myself now, indeed. I just want to live happily with my dreams, be myself and appreciate everything in my life. That's all. Living in people eyes was indeed a very toughful moments. Letting all away. Do what I want. Stay happy. Smile on every mistakes and learn from it. Stay strong. Don't easily get beaten up by an obstacles. There's so many alternative ways to continue your journey, if this way block just don't be afraid to turn to the other side, just go. NO to ANXIETY! FEAR! Just do it. Say YES I CAN! :)

The Last Piece For March

       The result is seen. I will never forget the moment when I got the result slip from the headmistress' hands. At first, i'm overjoyed that the emcee announed my name as one of the straight a's student. But everything changed after I received my result. My feeling is ruined. My heart is broken. Thousand of questions have came over my mind, where are all my A+? Why is the result worst than what I had expected? I could really feel my tears rolled down my cheeks. Its the feeling of disappoinment and sad. Sorry, really sorry to those who feel disappointed to my result. Sorry that I didn't get straight A+. Although at first I knew that i could reach it, but this was what everyone expect me to get. Before the examination, I was really slacked. Lazy. Did not even touch the books. But when i told everyone about it, no one believe, saying that i'm lying. And when the result is revealed, everyone were disappointed. HAIZ. Anyway, it passed. Lets look forward. That will just be a great lesson for me. I told myself, just give me one and a half year, i will really proof to the whole world that the real YINYING is back! HAHA! :)
        Now, is the moment for me to work hard and enjoy my life in this college. I will share my happiness to everyone here. Every moment of happiness will be noted! :) Let us colour our life. Say BYE to those things that ruin your life, making you sad. :)

Watever

          Its already 2 and a half months I'm in the college. I really enjoy my life here. I don't feel any burden or heavy stress here. Although I knew that I don't speak English oftenly since i entered the college, but i would rather improve my english at home. I really don't feel like leaving this college. My classmates are so nice and they treat one another with a sincere heart. Maybe I may not leave. 1 more week, my result will be out. I do hope that I will achieve flying colours in SPM, perhaps. But I have to leave. Anyway I just hope that I will stay here and score well in the exams. Sorry that my English becoming worst. I will slowly improve it back. :)
         Sometimes, I really hope that those past diaries, memories will be disappeared itself. After reading them, I felt that I became more mature. HEHE. Few years ago, I used to emo myself or sit somewhere alone without wanting others to accompany. That's me. HAHA. Now, I seldom do that already. I'm feeling happier I think. Different angle of view will really give different opinion or thought. I just see life differently nowadays. Slowly, I want to get rid of the thousand tonnes of stress or burden on my shoulder, its because I used to feel stressful when I'm doing something. It should be worried, not stressful I guess. Its complicated. I just don't know how to explain it. I saw one quote that day, it says that by completing a difficult task with determination will really show your real ability. This really inspires me. Till here. :)

Nowadays, My Life

     我，是个怎么样的人啊？我，到底是发生了啥事啊？我怎么突然不了解自己了呢？天啊，救救我吧！我茫然、失措，不知如何是好。
     从前，我总以为我是开朗的人、快乐的人。但，原来那一切都是短暂的。忽然，我发现自己活在一个忧愁、孤独的世界里，这世界好冷淡、好寂寞噢！我，原来很少微笑过；我，原来听的歌曲都是悲伤曲调的；我，原来是那么冷酷的。也许，你、我都觉得此时此刻的我又旧病重燃了吧！我，就是这样的人，像个在大海上漂泊不定的木头，失去了安全感，寻找不到靠岸，对待每一件事都会不断的徘徊、坐立不安。近来，就是一直想起高二的大考，担心自己的成绩不佳、担心自己没有达到大家对我所期待的成绩。我已经不断的安慰自己，“没事的！没事的！别想了！” 但，我的头脑怎么不听话呢？有时候，还会发恶梦或是想到头痛。每当一想起家人所对我的期望，我便会浑然不自在、难以喘气。我对我的期望也许太大了吧！明明知道那是超出我的能力范围的，但却不听话，继续幻想成功的那一天。我，这是怎么了啊？冷静下来吧！过去已不能改变的事，就已成定局了。不管成绩会怎样，总得接受，那就是人生的考验。人，就是要经过不断的磨炼才能成功。最重要的事，把现在的事做好，免得重蹈覆辙。至于寂寞，可能是心灵上的空虚感赵成的吧！找一找东西填补吧！我相信我自己知道该怎么样。我啊，必须从已碎成碎片的一切，慢慢地拼凑回来。加油吧！又是我最爱听的这三个字。或是，화이팅 !  ^^ 

  Dance with my life with SISTAR! 

STARS

     这几天里，我过得真好啊！哈哈！近来与友人相处得特融洽，尤其是我的学姐！她，人真好，挺亲切的。我与她真投缘，哈哈！可能是因为我难得找到一位和我一样喜欢韩风的姐姐吧！Unnie! 哈哈！真希望此时此刻的钟摆能停止下来，让这么美好的一刻持续下去。这一刻的幸福多美妙，能在学校见到韩国来的朋友，个个都是帅哥、美女，有时候还忍不住多看几眼呢！呵呵！他们真是我精神上的粮食！

     The stars are blinking brightly in the sky. They all shines in the night, making the sky to look extremely beautiful. Everyone have a chance to shine like the stars. The most important thing is to be determined and have confidence to yourself. Becoming a star does not mean to be famous or something glamour. Doing things that you wish and doing something that is right is just the thing that will make you shine like a star. Believing in yourself! : ) 

舞动人生

     上大学的日子已有几个星期之多了，虽然会对这所学院有怨言，但我还是觉得这里的学长、学姐们都还蛮有亲和力的。在这里，是我展开新的路程的好地方，师资都还不赖，是无可挑剔的，但我还是对那里的设施感到不满，“一分钱、一分货”嘛，毕竟我交的学费是别人的一半，当然会比别人的差一些。话虽如此，但，我在这里感到快乐，犹如发现新希望似的。以前的经历，让我深深地体会做每件事都必须付出代价，正所谓，“不经一番寒刺骨，焉得梅花扑鼻香？”。在接下来的人生呢，我得遵守三好，做好事、说好话、存好心，我必须时时刻刻提醒我自己要守原则。近来，不断幻想毕业的自己，虽然那还有大概一个年代的事，但我却情不自禁的不断幻想。哎，女生嘛！总爱幻想，想有的没的。
   
      人因梦想而伟大。有了梦想的自己总觉得不一样，感觉有推动力了、感觉生命变得更美丽了。我的梦想也许在这庞大的世界里能找出相同的，但我相信我有能力把实现梦想的过程变得不一样，我要舞动我的人生，将点点滴滴变得更精彩，让自己体会到那成就感，为自己感到光荣。
   
      夜，已深了。天上的星星你好吗？希望我能够把我生命里的星星给摘下。我相信雨后必会天青，不管人生中遇到任何的挫折，都不可以气馁，要更加勇敢的面对。虽然知道想见H君是不可能的任务，但还没有挑战就不能断定成功或失败，加油吧！“加油”，这两字，是给予我最大的动力。（俏俏的）加油啊！ 화이팅 !  ♥  오빠, 기다려 주세요 !  ♥